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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Trust? Friendship?



En : sy pelik, bakpo nk wak fitnah?
saing sdiri tu Jo, mayb all this happens sbb ALLAH nk igtkan sy, jgn berSANGKA BAEK sokmo, there's always a room for 'stinking stokin'

Jo : eh? bg sy takpo kito sangka baik ko ore sokmo

En : eh... btol gok

Jo : bg sy, i realise that there's always a room for stoking busuk tu..haha tp make it invisible in ur own room, wat gapo nok sipe, even though mende tu wujud tp still nk membusukkan kito, kalu kito napok ado hok tok molek ko ore tu, kito jange tgk hok tok molek...tgk hok molek, pahtu nanti ore tu akan realise sendiri, Allah kan maha adil.. remember that :)

En : hurm..btol jugok. buleh wak blog baru nih, =))

this is when i came about the idea to spread my real life experience to others..
may be the issue was not so much big that can affect life and death.. but it may affect how we perceive others and vice versa.

the story or the real matter is very .. i mean.. very simple.. but when it comes to human speech, there's always spaces to fill in with tremendous special effects (bergantung kepada kebolehan seseorang dalam rhetoric speech;iaitu percakapan yang mampu diutarakan utk mempengaruhi seseorg).. hoho

bagi sy, adalah tidak elok sama sekali menceritakan keaiban sesama sendiri, apatah lagi menokok nambah (nasik tambah yang agak mahal skrg ni), which was created to make the story interesting OR there's not so much things to tell that THEY have to CREATE or INNOVATE the story to be a bit RISKY to the hearer.. haha

ape tujuan nya pun aku tatau.. adakah self-satisfaction from a simply unveiling the truth? manyak la punye truth kalo da ditokok tambah.. sayang la lidah kte.. saket tau kalo kne potong berulangkali kat akhirat kelak.. nauzubillah..

inilah cabaran seorang Islam..muslim dan muslimah.. setiap orang akan diduga, xkire dgn cara ape skalipun..so, kne jd handal kerana ahli syurga ALLAH adalah di kalangan yang handal2 belaka ^-^ ...

special request for a special person for a special purpose and reason.. for ALLAH.. fillah!!

aku diduga untuk menghadapi fitnah..
DIA tu diduga untuk TIDAK membuat FITNAH
dan
korang diduga untuk dengar kisah aku
hihihi


ini ingatan utk diri sendiri dan sume org kat luar sane..
xperlu menokok nambah because it will become a lie and penipu itu dibenci..
dan kte sume xske diTIPU dan membenci perasaan benci tapi.. dat's wut life is all about..

it's the act of RESIST.. resistance to the temptation.. to any kind of temptations.

people is human and human is not perfect... everybody make mistake, so.. kte kne la slalu ber HUSNUL DZAN or BErSANGKA BAIK kat orang WITH a very little doubt for any unexpected thing to happen.. kerana ALLAH jadikan manusia ini sungguh unik.. unik dari semua segi.. no one know the future except ALLAH.. ALLAHuAKBAR!!

and always remember..

there's always a room for stinking stokin.. but try to make it invisible in our room because we dont need any unpleasant odour to disturb our lives..

and our lives...

Please make it special, sacred and unique with ISLAM inside!!!

p/s: Avoid FITNAH.. please cherish sesama saudara ISLAM .. preserve ISLAMhood!! because IslamHood covers all the "hood" and the "ship" in the world..

Monday, July 28, 2008

Asam Pedas Melaka.. Femes??

Em: nnt la.. tgk kejap2 lagi ke..
En: Alaa.. Lapar ni.. Housemate semua da beli makanan.. Lapar ni.. xmakan lagi.. da malam da ni.. tdo je la kot ..

Em: Isk, Kul 9 lebih boleh?
En: takyah susah2.. takpe ar.. da mlm. ni.. tdo je la

Em: nak kuar makan ke nak orang hantar makanan jer?
En: nk!!! hehe.. nk kuar..


lepas da sesat2 dalam kawasan perumahan bukit baru.. kete encik Em, Toyota LE nih pun meluncur laju ke arah kota melaka...

Em: kite gi makan kat Kota Laksamana ye..
En and Jo : Kota Laksamana tu kat ne?
Em: ntah.. around2 sini je kot.. ntah da lame tak jalan melaka nih.. (biar da dekat 5tahun duk blaja kat MMU tuh)

sampai je sane.. fuuhhh.. penuh ngan Chinese..

Em: Kedai ni Laki die muallaf cina, bini die ISLAM melayu..
En and Jo: ooowwwhhh...

makan ken main sedap..slurp slurp..
dihantar pulang ke rumah.. dan terus landing... wahhh nikmatnye
tq Em..

huhu

tapi yang pelik kan.. tak kire, ke kedai makan mane pun kat melaka ni .. ade je lauk asam pedas.. femes sangat sampai sume orang nak buat.. alhamdulillah rezeki masing2..
mostly kedai yg di put up kan dengan hanya menu asam pedas penuh belaka bila malam menjelma..

aku memang tak boleh terima kedai yang bermenu sedikit ini. seolah2 menyekat selera aku yang pelbagai ni.. hehehe
tapi, nak wat cane, da rezeki dan cara berniaga masing2 yang berbeza.. nak wat cane..

nak wat cane... da memang kate encik Em, Asam Pedas kat Kota Laksamana ni femes, sampai orang dr KL pun makan slurp slurp.. walaupun panas dan pedas..
wahhh panas dan pedas.... slurppppp

dan malam itu .. kitorang bertiga bercorner 'lerek', hasil tangan Encik Em berupaya memutar stereng dgn penuh bergaya sehingga Jo di belakang bergolek mencekup tudung ku hingga hiruk pikuk keadaan dalam kereta..

hahahahaha

semua gelak dengan keadaan masing2..
nak wat cane
ni mesti sbb panas dan pedas penangan Asam Pedas Kota Laksamana nihh..
hoho

nyte Em, En and Jo!!

Thursday, July 24, 2008

dreamLand~


mimpi
aku mimpi

walaupun tidur siang
hatiku tetap tersentuh

mane tak nye
aku mimpi tentang acara akad
ye, akad nikah

akad nikah oleh seseorang yang penting dalam hidup ini
namun lafaznya bukan bersama namaku

aku segera beredar
mengetahui si dia bukan memilihku
tapi
adik ku sendiri

aku beredar

tapi yang menyedihkan
ketika aku selesai menunaikan solat
pintu bilikku ingin dikunci

kerana ditakuti aku akan melakukan sesuatu
sesuatu di luar jangkaan

aku mengamuk, meracau
bukan kerana acara akad
(walaupun hati ini masih berharap si dia menukar hajat)
tapi kerana keluarga sudah tidak mempercayaiku
aku dipinggirkan

namun
aku mampu meloloskan diri
dan membuang kunci ke luar pagar

di lur bilik
suasana sepi
semua mata memandangku

aku mendengar seorang lelaki megumumkan sesuatu
mengumumkan pengantin ingin keluar dari tempat akad
maka
si dia keluar
mencariku

hatiku sedikit bahagia
si dia memegang tanganku
lalu berkata

sudikah kamu menjadi
kakak iparku?

sebak
hancur luluh
aku jatuh
ke lantai
tapi tangan kami masih terpegang erat
dengan berat
aku merelakan

dan berkata
"i wil always miss u"
seriously...

air mata tidak dapat kutahan lagi
hatiku menangis
bersedih
kerana panah cinta terpisah dari jantungku

***

aku terus sedar dari tidurku
hatiku masih menangis
sakit
perasaanku tersentuh
inginku luahkan kepada teman bilikku
namun
aku gusar dan lidah kuterkelu

nampaknya
cintaku masih tidak mampu menakluk hati sesiapa
aku mengharapkan cahaya suci
sementara itu
elok aku mendiam sepi

ah
mimpi oh mimpi
lalu aku bangun
solat
menagih kasih kepada
ALLAH yang Maha Pencinta





Wednesday, July 23, 2008

ordinary girl ^-^

This is a story of a girl…

Just happened 4 days earlier…

After a few miscalls from him, which Anita rarely got, she decides to ask Borhan through SMS.

A: Nape call?

B: Saje, nk ajak awk kuar.

Note that he started using “sy-awk” conversation just a couple of week before. Usually, he would insist on using “abg-syg” and darling what so ever sort of call names in order to be romantic (as he said). But Anita insists on using “sy-awk”, in order to keep the distance because she is against coupling. But she tolerates with him which make her resorts to “I-you” conversation as the middle road for both sides.

Let’s continue…

A: Tak kot. Saya dah tak percaya awak. Sorry sangat. Awak dah rosakkan segalanya. Dan awak ingat senang-senang jer nak mainkan saya. Thanks for this friendship, semoga kita sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah.

B: Ape sebabnya? Pasal Mimi je ke?

Note that Mimi is Anita’s close friend who was with Anita and two other girls on Anita and Borhan’s first meeting. She lives in Kuantan, and after some times, Borhan asked Anita for Mimi’s handphone’s number. He claimed that he is going to Terengganu for work purposes and need to ask directions from Mimi. Hurm, Anita got confused since the roads to Kuantan and Terengganu from Kuala Lumpur are full with signboards and yet, he still wanted Mimi’s number. So, Anita asked Mimi whether she is willing to help. So, Mimi gave a green light and Anita gave him the number…

The SMS-ing conversation continues…

A: Mungkin ya, mungkin tak jugak.

B: Dah la lantak kau la. Malas aku layan kau lagi. Perempuan tak reti malu.

A: Wei, cakap elok-elok sikit. Takde adab langsung. Sedap mulut je eh. Awak jangan ingat awak hebat eh. And jangan ingat saya ni perempuan murahan macam yang awak duk cerita selalu tu. Itu pun kalo diorang betul kawan-kawan awak la kan. Saya dah letih bersangka baik kat awak. Begini awak buat? Awak ingat sikit, awak yang salah eh. Tolong sikit.

B: Mampos ko la *inatang.

B: Rasa dirik kacak. Muka ko diat. *untok. Aku tak halal makan dan minum kau.

A: hello. Tak halal ke mende? Sudah la. Halal tak halal masa tu je. Takde maknanye. Cakap berlagak kaya. Rezeki semua dari Allah. Tak payah nak berlagak. Syukur saya xpernah nk couple dengan awak. Alhamdulillah. Nak mengungkit ye, elok la tu. Sayang la duit tu. Sebab duit boleh bawak masuk kubur, kan?

B: Aku takkan halalkan makan dan minum kau. Perempuan tak kenang budi. Badan *emuk, kau ingat aku nak sangat dengan kau? Cermin la muka kau… Orang macam kau watpe nak buat baik? Tuduh aku jahat.. piker negatif. Dah la jangan kontek aku lagi. Berambus kau dalam hidup aku.

A: Alhamdulillah.

-==SMS-ing Ended==-

Hurm, the story is rather cynical where the guy is the one who’s craving madly for her love. Anita’s got confused, and she felt that, that Borhan doesn’t deserve anything from here, including her anger. She doesn’t really back her up to him because, rather than being angry, instead she felt pity for him. Borhan doesn’t really want to know Anita especially her personality and what she believes in. Borhan never tries to understand, or make an effort as to acknowledge Anita’s achievement in anything and he failed to understand what a relationship is about.

During their time of relationship, no doubt that Anita is always keep sending and replying his messages, but the one who always expressing romantic feelings such as “kiss, hug, and love” was Borhan. Why men (sorry for overgeneralization) tend to ignore the girls’ feeling of being uncomfortable and keep lusting their partner with the physical love and lust? If it has taken a rather long period of time, that can be considered acceptable provided that they are already planned for marriage in the near future but still with restriction. The fact that our life is protected by Islam, we should be tougher to avoid these kind of expression malfunction to occur.

I truly disagree to the fact that men and women should be touching each other when they were coupled. And most of the secrets are revealed to the partner before they got married, for example, the menstrual circle, the size of cup and every other tiny winy things. Shouldn’t we all be ashamed if we were not married whom the secrets being told to? We have crossed the trust we gave to our husbands and wives, even before we got married! Don’t be irresponsible to your soul mate. We all have to be patient and keep strong so that the love grew sweeter and challenging.

In refuting to his saying of “tak halalkan”, Anita can defend herself that everytime (only twice) they go on a date (accompanied by a third party), she had to pay for the gas. Borhan will joke about paying the gas with “sayang2” words which Anita decided to help him out. Twice out, twice gas?? Hello. My mom always said that I should stay away from a man like that. InsyaALLAH. May be Anita decides so since he paid for Kenny Rogers’s dinner of RM46 bill. At once, Anita sensed that he was beating around the bush when he said that he owns thousands of ringgits and willingly to take Anita to shop using his money. Anita doesn’t really fall for it and suggested not to bother so much since his boasting manner really kills the night. (How is it possible when he said he owns so much money, but when to pay the bill, he’s rather hesitated).. owh.. man! Especially Borhan type!

And then, he started to touch her, intended to hold hands and stuff. It is normal nowadays that couples to hold hand, but Anita is different. She is no ordinary girl, I hope. And I really hope that Anita will always be different, but not a freak. Hehe =). Btw, Anita isn’t comfortable with the situation when it came to a point where Anita had to shout and then, politely asked him to control his Nafs. Wow! Sounds critical, uh? Well, as far as I’m concerned, Anita does seem cool and stuff but to be exact, she’s kind of inexperience with this kind of thing (although sometimes, she can be a Heaven(Hell?) of Dr.love)hehe.

One more thing I want to bring about the discussion, why we have to curse here and there when we’re about to break up? (In this case, Anita never agreed to couple with this guy). What happens to those promises and sweet talks? The punch lines and all? Is it hatred? Anger? Strongly I believe Borhan doesn’t deserve anything from Anita including her anger! That shows how low oneself can be! Serve him right. Although Anita had no satisfaction for standing up for herself, I think she resorted to a happier thought than verbally assaulted that man.

Whatever it is, let me continue with the REAL story. 3 days before the day (Saturday) Anita agreed to go on a date with Borhan, Mimi confronted Anita with an amazing story. Borhan used the number Anita herself gave him to court Mimi. He asked Mimi out since he’s be coming to Kuantan, twice. It is quite lucky for Mimi to have strongly and boldly rejected the invitation and sincerely advising Anita to not to fall for that particular type of guy. So, the above conversation occurred after Friday’s Prayer…

One more thing that annoys Anita about that Borhan is, he kept repeating that he have lunch with this girls, went out on movies with that girls and even to play pool with girls. He even commented that he met a girl as beautiful as Fasha Sandha in TRAFFIC JAM. OMG! What kind of guy who overstating those statements to the girl he claimed to love? Can we consider him abnormal? Well, Anita couldn’t be bother and had once replied the message with “ owh. Me too. I met my former schoolmate who’s now looks as handsome as Hans Isaac”. Well, it seems that it stopped him from continuing to boast about his girls friends.

So much with Anita’s story. She couldn’t be bother with that Borhan anymore. Enough is enough. And I’m glad that Anita doesn’t excrete any tears for him, but I think she’s quite thankful for not being involved so much with him. With him, she can never be herself and she never gained any respect and acknowledgment from him. I learn from her story that don’t easily fall for the sweet talker and punch liner ( I think she didn’t fall for him).. Thank God.

-==The End==-

p/s: Pray for her and me (hehe) to get a better partner and soulmate. ^-^